Just this evening it hit me that I’ve had this blog up and running for over a year. Fifteen months to be exact. It feels rather unbelievable to me because I remember when I first decided that I was absolutely going to put a blog up–no more excuses or delays–and it was in April 2020. Just a month after the pandemic hit and three months after I had my baby boy.
Now, life has continued to move on even though many things in our country and the world have changed. I have a baby girl as well, born in March of 2021, and my life is busier than ever.
Looking back, it feels strange that over a year has passed since I published my first post because time can move so fast and so slow at the same time. How can I have two beautiful babies–well, technically, one toddler and one baby–when it feels like just recently, my husband and I were just a cozy twosome? That was three years ago now. And how can I be nearing that big, scary number (the 4-0) when it feels like not too long ago I was in college and worried about making it in the big, bad world?
And at the same time, when I think back to just a few months ago when my daughter was up for hours and hours every night, time did not fly by; rather, the moments moved slower than dark molasses creeping down tree bark.
Time is a tricky thing. Yet it is important to remember that those hard days won’t last forever. Perhaps more sobering though is that the good days don’t last forever either. We have to embrace both as fully as possible and know that life keeps rolling forward one way or another.
As it keeps moving, it is critical for us to move as well. Move forward in whatever ways you can. Learn new skills, polish old skills. Do the things you love and spend time with those you love. Exercise your body and strengthen your mind. When you get derailed, pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and start again.
I haven’t kept up with this blog with as much consistency as I would have liked over the past fifteen months. But that is no reason to give up on it. When I look back, I feel proud that I actually dove in and started my blog–something that I had been saying I was going to do for years. I feel disappointed with myself that I haven’t built it up as much as I wanted, but that is just an area that I can grow over this next year. Time keeps marching forward and the only thing I can do is continue to jump back on the horses that are running in the direction I want to go. Not every pursuit we choose will be worth our time so it is okay to let some of them go, but the ones you love, stick with them. Grow them and cultivate them. Believe in yourself and remember that time will keep moving forward.
Time will not stop for you or for me. Make choices today that you will be proud of a year from now.
